What does it mean to You ?...Love that is

Love.
I don't think there's a day that goes by that I don't hear this word. What does it mean ?? I mean sure there's a ton definitions for it & I bet if you raised this topic to anyone you'd have a life long conversation about it, but what does it really mean ?! I'm an 18 year old young woman living in the 21st century with years of knowledge about Love scattered in every corner of the universe & yet I'm amazed every day at this four letter word. Don't get me wrong I've been in Love. I've felt its warmth,its tenderness,its kindness,its happiness..but I've also felt its harsh words,sadness,pain, & even the scars still remain, but is all that really apart of Love ? If it is its a joke that's gone horribly wrong!

People tend to say that age is a factor in it all. With age comes wisdom blah blah blah. Bullshit! is what I scream. For example there are couples that have been together from as soon as elementry school & against the odds they stood strong & lasted through everything. As young as I am I've been through things 1OOO x's worse than the next man. In my opinion it all comes down to how open you are to accept Love & all the things [big&small] that come along with it.

This may sound kind cheesy but every night I lay thinking, imagining a "perfect" Love. Not in the sense of a fairytale Love where things just seem to magically belong together but a Love thats Perfect for ME. I myself am not perfect. I have plenty of flaws & being that Im on the inside looking out I see more of my bad assets than my good. But where do you look when every which way you turn you end it with a "fuck you! have a nice life" ? I completely understand that I still have years ahead of me to look & possibly find [if I'm lucky] a Love that I can finally call my own & end that with an "till death do us part", but time isnt standing still & Im not getting any younger lol.

Whatever the definition may be, Love is something everyone wants a peice of. No matter how old & bitter or how young & full of themself someone is. What I do know is that you cant force Love or learn how to Love..it simply comes as naturally as breathing.

"And its you are whatever a moon has always meant & whatever a sun will always sing is you" -E.E. Cummings