Just Wanted some Beauty on My Page

Soo I'm sick :( . For four days straight I've been in complete agonyyy. Ok, Im o.d'ing lol but Im definitely not me. It started out as a head cold then it traveled to the rest of my body . I even still went to class, tuhh! Peppermint tea & cough drops is my diet right now (except for the occasional sphagetti breaks lol) . Feeling alot better thoo since my body isnt in pain anymore. At home now watching "Consenting Adults" (its the only thing on lol, but still a good movie) eating Skittles. Think Im gnna hit the sheets after this movie thoo, gotta get up early for Jr's Dr.'s appointment. But before I go I'll leave you with what I have to say is one of my fav songs of 2O1O already! I go to sleep to it at night lol I hate when I wake up & my iPod is dead hahaa . Muahh ! :-*****

Life is Beautiful as Ever when it pans Out

New Years came & went, now we're starting a Brand New year. Shit still feels the same, but a Little Bit different *Smile*. I go back to school tomorrow *ughhh!!* which means I'm back on my grind (this medical field shit aint no joke) lol.

Now I've never really made a New Years resolution before, simply because its like a form of a *Promise* to me, & I've always been told "A Promise is a comfort to a fool!", says my Mom lol & every promise that has EVER been made to me has been broken. So lets just say I'm not a fan hahaa. But for some reason I feel like this year has alot in store for me. Its like that little feeling you get in your gut *butterflies I guess*. I cant wait to live out each day (good or bad).

Just last year I was stuck in a rut. I felt alone, upset all the time, boredddd lol, & I guess kind of depressed. Nothing seemed to go my way. I lost my bestfriend to the one thing I want the most in My Life... Love. My mom & I just didnt seem to be getting along, which is nothing new lol, but it was just starting to take a toll on me. I found out a ton of things about myself (by accident) So I guess it really pays to listen lol. & every guy I seemed to be interested in said the same shit the last one said, hurt me then threw me away. No front I broke a heart or two, unintentionally, But as always I'm alone. I mean there are lots more but I'll keep it short & as least depressing as I can lol.

Im just trying to hold on to my Faith. I'm Living for my son (hes actually the only person that LOVEs me with every ounce of heart). I cant walk this earth dwelling on the things that seem to be important THAT day, so I guess prioritising is in order lol. As for Love... I'm done looking around. I'll keep *Him* in my thoughts as I've been doing & if its meant to happen it will. But on some real shit he's ALL I've ever wanted & I'll probably be in Love with Him Forever lol.

With all that said I'm still trying to think of a title for this post lol. I'm going to make the most of this year & every year following. & with the Lord with me ALL things are possible.

Faith. Hope.Love.Happiness :)

My New Years

So this New Years was an eventful one for me. I spent it with close friends that I've known since I was 7 1/2 . We met in 2OOO, which means we've been friends for a decade now (thats 1O yrs) lol. We didnt take alot of pics because none of our drunk asses even brung a camera , So I opted for dat good ole Sprint Sanyo camera phone lmao. Great New Years thoo real talk..

I have a problem w/ taking pics of my feet when Im drunk lol. Can you see my pretty heels ?

Don't really like this pic but what the hay. Pap punk ass in the back lol

Got Moscato as soon as 12 O'clock hit. I was already trashed thoo, can you tell ? lol

These guys! lol. Mika doing her bf Matt hair, Ses laughing at Idk what & Pap coming throu.. There was some dude but I cnt remember what his name is..something with a T lol.

Shaheeda a.k.a Peachess! lmao

My baby KK. She been my bitchhhhhhh hahaa

Oookayy... .

WALDO (11:22:52 PM): hi
WALDO (11:22:51 PM): lol
trinikoolie314 (11:37:52 PM): sup ?
WALDO is available (11:41:13 PM)
WALDO (11:41:17 PM): u miss me
trinikoolie314 (11:43:16 PM): ummm

I didn't know how to answer that question w/o sounding like a bitch lol..

He still carried on the conversation.. I would'a deleted me off my buddy list lmao. But okay, Cool lol

*Name was changed for privacy purposes. I think Waldo fit him well Lol.

My Thoughts...When I think of Him

I mean I don't even know how to come at this. Knowing that I'm just one face in the sea of many that feels this way about you gives me even more of a reason to keep it in. I mean the chances of you even noticing me is 1 in a million..a billion maybe lol. You don't even know I exist !! Tuhh, I wont ever get to breathe your air, see your lovely face, enjoy your eyes looking at Me just to know your thinking about Me in any way. It really upsets Me ! LOL, Like if everyone has someone out there made especially for them how are we suppose to find them ? Are we suppose to search the world ? Put ourselves completely out there ?
Except, I rely on pictures of you (so I can look into your eyes)... beats & melodies with your voice (just as in my dreams)... every face I see is yours (literally smh), I see your smile every time I close my eyes, I plan out what our future could be like, what I would say if we ever spoke....
Damn ! Now that I'm typing this I see how crazy I actually sound LOL. But, who's to say that we're not meant for eachother ? That we would'nt enjoy eachothers company ?
I mean I can understand why You wouldnt be interested..what could I possibly have to offer You ?? What could I possily give to someone who has everything ??

With all these questions aside your always on my mind. Im gonna continue to utter your name in my prayers, daydream about you, & listen .. Cuz in actuality as much as I Hate to admit it.. this is the closest I'll ever get to you...



*This song Just came to life the first time I heard it. I thought about him automatically..I still do. Soo this is for Him*

oHH.. & Im not talking about J.Cole lol

P.S. Its so easy to put up your thoughts when you know noone reads them lol.. Well maybe theres someone out there that does lol

So Here's What I Do in My Spare Time...

A few pics of my weekend. My friends & I doing all there ever is to do In Atlanta,Ga *smdh*. But hey, It fills the void sooo Im all for it! LOL

Dec. 26th, 2OO9 _ Luis's Pre-bday Party. This
was my 2nd cup & I still had no idea WTF I was
drinking lol. Got the job done thoo ;)


Pshhh! My eyes are always thiss loww lol..
My bigass forhead lml


Pat mark ass ! Yeaa thats my bestfrienddd!
LOL


Tia & Pat (Baby swings & shit lol)



My manzz LD - Nuff Said loll


Dec. 27th, 2OO9
Im Starting off My day wit a blunt of Purp.. -Gucci
*Wake&Bake* ^_^


Feeling a bit Creative lol