Just Wanted some Beauty on My Page

Soo I'm sick :( . For four days straight I've been in complete agonyyy. Ok, Im o.d'ing lol but Im definitely not me. It started out as a head cold then it traveled to the rest of my body . I even still went to class, tuhh! Peppermint tea & cough drops is my diet right now (except for the occasional sphagetti breaks lol) . Feeling alot better thoo since my body isnt in pain anymore. At home now watching "Consenting Adults" (its the only thing on lol, but still a good movie) eating Skittles. Think Im gnna hit the sheets after this movie thoo, gotta get up early for Jr's Dr.'s appointment. But before I go I'll leave you with what I have to say is one of my fav songs of 2O1O already! I go to sleep to it at night lol I hate when I wake up & my iPod is dead hahaa . Muahh ! :-*****

Life is Beautiful as Ever when it pans Out

New Years came & went, now we're starting a Brand New year. Shit still feels the same, but a Little Bit different *Smile*. I go back to school tomorrow *ughhh!!* which means I'm back on my grind (this medical field shit aint no joke) lol.

Now I've never really made a New Years resolution before, simply because its like a form of a *Promise* to me, & I've always been told "A Promise is a comfort to a fool!", says my Mom lol & every promise that has EVER been made to me has been broken. So lets just say I'm not a fan hahaa. But for some reason I feel like this year has alot in store for me. Its like that little feeling you get in your gut *butterflies I guess*. I cant wait to live out each day (good or bad).

Just last year I was stuck in a rut. I felt alone, upset all the time, boredddd lol, & I guess kind of depressed. Nothing seemed to go my way. I lost my bestfriend to the one thing I want the most in My Life... Love. My mom & I just didnt seem to be getting along, which is nothing new lol, but it was just starting to take a toll on me. I found out a ton of things about myself (by accident) So I guess it really pays to listen lol. & every guy I seemed to be interested in said the same shit the last one said, hurt me then threw me away. No front I broke a heart or two, unintentionally, But as always I'm alone. I mean there are lots more but I'll keep it short & as least depressing as I can lol.

Im just trying to hold on to my Faith. I'm Living for my son (hes actually the only person that LOVEs me with every ounce of heart). I cant walk this earth dwelling on the things that seem to be important THAT day, so I guess prioritising is in order lol. As for Love... I'm done looking around. I'll keep *Him* in my thoughts as I've been doing & if its meant to happen it will. But on some real shit he's ALL I've ever wanted & I'll probably be in Love with Him Forever lol.

With all that said I'm still trying to think of a title for this post lol. I'm going to make the most of this year & every year following. & with the Lord with me ALL things are possible.

Faith. Hope.Love.Happiness :)

My New Years

So this New Years was an eventful one for me. I spent it with close friends that I've known since I was 7 1/2 . We met in 2OOO, which means we've been friends for a decade now (thats 1O yrs) lol. We didnt take alot of pics because none of our drunk asses even brung a camera , So I opted for dat good ole Sprint Sanyo camera phone lmao. Great New Years thoo real talk..

I have a problem w/ taking pics of my feet when Im drunk lol. Can you see my pretty heels ?

Don't really like this pic but what the hay. Pap punk ass in the back lol

Got Moscato as soon as 12 O'clock hit. I was already trashed thoo, can you tell ? lol

These guys! lol. Mika doing her bf Matt hair, Ses laughing at Idk what & Pap coming throu.. There was some dude but I cnt remember what his name is..something with a T lol.

Shaheeda a.k.a Peachess! lmao

My baby KK. She been my bitchhhhhhh hahaa