Oookayy... .

WALDO (11:22:52 PM): hi
WALDO (11:22:51 PM): lol
trinikoolie314 (11:37:52 PM): sup ?
WALDO is available (11:41:13 PM)
WALDO (11:41:17 PM): u miss me
trinikoolie314 (11:43:16 PM): ummm

I didn't know how to answer that question w/o sounding like a bitch lol..

He still carried on the conversation.. I would'a deleted me off my buddy list lmao. But okay, Cool lol

*Name was changed for privacy purposes. I think Waldo fit him well Lol.

My Thoughts...When I think of Him

I mean I don't even know how to come at this. Knowing that I'm just one face in the sea of many that feels this way about you gives me even more of a reason to keep it in. I mean the chances of you even noticing me is 1 in a million..a billion maybe lol. You don't even know I exist !! Tuhh, I wont ever get to breathe your air, see your lovely face, enjoy your eyes looking at Me just to know your thinking about Me in any way. It really upsets Me ! LOL, Like if everyone has someone out there made especially for them how are we suppose to find them ? Are we suppose to search the world ? Put ourselves completely out there ?
Except, I rely on pictures of you (so I can look into your eyes)... beats & melodies with your voice (just as in my dreams)... every face I see is yours (literally smh), I see your smile every time I close my eyes, I plan out what our future could be like, what I would say if we ever spoke....
Damn ! Now that I'm typing this I see how crazy I actually sound LOL. But, who's to say that we're not meant for eachother ? That we would'nt enjoy eachothers company ?
I mean I can understand why You wouldnt be interested..what could I possibly have to offer You ?? What could I possily give to someone who has everything ??

With all these questions aside your always on my mind. Im gonna continue to utter your name in my prayers, daydream about you, & listen .. Cuz in actuality as much as I Hate to admit it.. this is the closest I'll ever get to you...



*This song Just came to life the first time I heard it. I thought about him automatically..I still do. Soo this is for Him*

oHH.. & Im not talking about J.Cole lol

P.S. Its so easy to put up your thoughts when you know noone reads them lol.. Well maybe theres someone out there that does lol

So Here's What I Do in My Spare Time...

A few pics of my weekend. My friends & I doing all there ever is to do In Atlanta,Ga *smdh*. But hey, It fills the void sooo Im all for it! LOL

Dec. 26th, 2OO9 _ Luis's Pre-bday Party. This
was my 2nd cup & I still had no idea WTF I was
drinking lol. Got the job done thoo ;)


Pshhh! My eyes are always thiss loww lol..
My bigass forhead lml


Pat mark ass ! Yeaa thats my bestfrienddd!
LOL


Tia & Pat (Baby swings & shit lol)



My manzz LD - Nuff Said loll


Dec. 27th, 2OO9
Im Starting off My day wit a blunt of Purp.. -Gucci
*Wake&Bake* ^_^


Feeling a bit Creative lol

So yesterday Jr & I had Wendy's for lunch (Im such a health nut lol), & I got a nugget shaped like a heart. Thought it was cool. Then I got all highh & thought of it as a sign of some sort smh. Well who's ever heart it was, I have it close to me now lol

Brainstorm, Take Me Away From The Norm

I think one of the things that defines a person is the music they listen to. Some songs describe you. Some remind you of things you've been through, done, or things you daydream of someday happening *smile* . These are a bit of what I Love. Take a listen if you haven't already heard.

Corinne Bailey Rae "I'd Do It All Again"

The video is directed by acclaimed film director Jamie Thraves, the man responsible for such iconic videos as Radiohead's 'Just' and Coldplay's 'The Scientist'. Talking about the video Thraves exclusively told Myspace "Corinne and I met just as I was formulating the idea. She told me she was a fan of my work, said she thought it was very real looking, cinematic and quite dark and that's what she wanted for her video, nothing too sunny she said. I looked at her other videos and realized just how sunny they were and why she wanted to do something different for this song, but on the day we filmed it was such a lovely sunny day - I told Corinne the sun just seems to follow her around, but it's okay because in sad moments the sun can underline sadness just as easily as rain." - Courtesy of WorldStarHipHop.com

* "Due to the circumstances that Corinne wrote this song, it made it even more real. No front I cried lol. You can see the pain in her eyes. My condolences go out to her & her heart. I can only imagine. None the less, a very lovely song" *

* R.I.P Brittany Murphy *

As I get older, I just prefer to knit *LOL*

*Fact: I've never taken those cute lovey dovey pics girls usually take with their boyfriends & posted them on myspace,facebook..what have you. Im usually alone.. thinking.. "I wish I had someone to take this pic with..it would be so sweet" lol

I thought these were Pretty funny *

I Love ......

"One may have a blazing hearth in one’s soul, and yet no one ever comes to sit by it"

Thinking Ahead

lol

Fantasy

Your Mom

Things Fall Apart

Love at first slide

Classhole

Angular Momentum

....

Frustration

Thank Me Later

He goes by Drake. I call him The Future! There isn't anyone on his level in my eyes. Multi-talented Rapper,Singer,Song writer,Actor..wooo! I find myself at a loss for words when it comes to him. He's an amazing man, & very dedicated to his craft.Confident yet shy in a way. I know your like "bitch! you don't know him!" lmao & your right I don't, but I can take a listen & find out what I need to know which is why I could go on for days about him. He's like none other..he seems to be more focused on his success & his peoples well being than the lime light. He has a poetic way with words & his metaphors are crazy! He runs circles around a subject to give you a climatic conclusion which leaves you with a simple smirk & a "dis nigga is nice!!!" lol. He seems to always say what I self consciously think. He has no choice but to rise to the top which he seems to be dominating quite well might I add. Ughh! I swear only a man like dis could make me wanna keep typing lmfao. Aubrey Graham, I tip my hat to you. I hope you achieve everything you've ever reached for. Much SUCCESS Love! Muahh*

*until you find yourself its impossible to lose you.. beacause I never had you.. although I would be glad to. I prolly go & tattoo... your name on my heart.. I swear I start to think that Im going crazy*

All the If's -Trey Songz

This is my #1 Favorite song by Mr.Songz! So here it is..

Its still ringin in my ear
You screamin "I dont care"
& I can see it like it just went down
Me walkin out of there
I still see em on your face baby
So many tears
& I remember feelin like Im bout to explode
got to get , out of here

[bridge]
It's like my sun wont shine
Its like my ride don't roll
Its like the only one thing I Love don't Love me no'mo
Its like my right gone wrong
Its like my ice gone warm
Its like the only one thing I Love don't Love me no'mo

[chorus]
If I hadn't just slacked up on my pimpin
{you'd be here w/ me}
If I'd a stayed instead of dippin
{you'd be here w/ me}
If I'd a prayed instead of wishin
{you'd still be here w/ me}
But all the If's in the world wont bring you back again

I wish that I could run that back
but in life you cant press rewind
'Cause the only way to fix this thing
is to go back in time
If I could have my wayyy
Yesterday would be right now!
Instead of fightin we'd be makin Love
till the sun go down

[bridge]
[chorus 2x]

If I could Just hold my shawty
If I could kiss my shawty
If I could bring my shawty back
{if I could, I would}
If I could just see you baby
If we could talk then maybe
I could have my lady back

[chorus]
[bridge]

*Written by: Tremaine Neverson, Troy Taylor, Ezekiel Lewis, Scott Storch, & Robert Waller*

Music!!!!

Okay! Seeing as how I cnt LIVE w/o music I thought that I would post songs {new & old} that I Love & that I think you all would Love,like,hate..dnt matter! Im still posting it! lol.. Not only am I posting the name of the songs but the lyrics as well. The lyrics may not be 1OO% correct but I'll try my best. I'll also post the website where I get the lyrics from [Lyrics.com] <-There you go! haha. Hope you enjoy Muahh!

What does it mean to You ?...Love that is

Love.
I don't think there's a day that goes by that I don't hear this word. What does it mean ?? I mean sure there's a ton definitions for it & I bet if you raised this topic to anyone you'd have a life long conversation about it, but what does it really mean ?! I'm an 18 year old young woman living in the 21st century with years of knowledge about Love scattered in every corner of the universe & yet I'm amazed every day at this four letter word. Don't get me wrong I've been in Love. I've felt its warmth,its tenderness,its kindness,its happiness..but I've also felt its harsh words,sadness,pain, & even the scars still remain, but is all that really apart of Love ? If it is its a joke that's gone horribly wrong!

People tend to say that age is a factor in it all. With age comes wisdom blah blah blah. Bullshit! is what I scream. For example there are couples that have been together from as soon as elementry school & against the odds they stood strong & lasted through everything. As young as I am I've been through things 1OOO x's worse than the next man. In my opinion it all comes down to how open you are to accept Love & all the things [big&small] that come along with it.

This may sound kind cheesy but every night I lay thinking, imagining a "perfect" Love. Not in the sense of a fairytale Love where things just seem to magically belong together but a Love thats Perfect for ME. I myself am not perfect. I have plenty of flaws & being that Im on the inside looking out I see more of my bad assets than my good. But where do you look when every which way you turn you end it with a "fuck you! have a nice life" ? I completely understand that I still have years ahead of me to look & possibly find [if I'm lucky] a Love that I can finally call my own & end that with an "till death do us part", but time isnt standing still & Im not getting any younger lol.

Whatever the definition may be, Love is something everyone wants a peice of. No matter how old & bitter or how young & full of themself someone is. What I do know is that you cant force Love or learn how to Love..it simply comes as naturally as breathing.

"And its you are whatever a moon has always meant & whatever a sun will always sing is you" -E.E. Cummings

Fashionista!

Now these are the baddest heels I've seen in a while. Simple yet any woman could make the world stop spinning with these on [haha]. I'm a big heel fanatic & a label whore which is why I picked these particular pumps as my Fashionista headliner! Created by Gucci ; my sources inform me that they're a cheaper version of the Christian Louboutin pumps, but IDGAF! your still gonna pay a hefty price for these bad boys lol. Height doesnt really bother me, I could walk to Africa in these [chill no braggin] Im just sayin ;). If you want these you may have to wait a while. Due to make its debut in September, theres already a waiting list. Get on it while you can people!

No one holds my hand like him.

MY IDOL! Angela Simmons. Entreprenuer & Fashion Mogul. Works it in ANYTHING she has on! Vivacious personality , not to mention pretty! Head strong & doesnt go for any B.S. Shes used her resources well & made a name for her self. I've actually met her [& her sister Vanessa Simmons] one time in an ATL airport. We were headed in the same direction & were on the same plane lol. Down to earth & friendly are my words for them both. Shes an amazing young woman & a great role model. No doubt about it. She even rocks my Fav color! Pink! lol..Much Love & success hun! Muahh** :-*

My Fabolous Life : Loso in case you didnt Know So...

This gentleman right here is doing it big in a major way this year. Not to mention he can dress his ass off! (did you see the Louie checker board shirts?!) lol Exactly! He puts Brooklyn on the map again & again with hits nobody could deny. Now 'Loso's Way' is a great album but MY fav still remains 'Real Talk' ; fucc what ya'll talkin bout lol. Pay homage to one of thee best veterans in the game ppl! its only right!! -Niiicceeee!-

"& my baby kno how to start me up; you got da kinda kiss dat'll speed a heart beat up; & you got da kinda touch dat could gimmie da chills; I ask you cuz I kno you gonna gimmie it real; it wont be fake & dnt we make a good couple & wont we make a good Baby"

Shawty dats yuh Bestfriend! MyBFF!!! She da the fire to my blunt word up! Julissa..but you can call her Juicy! if you see her you'll know why haha. She was quite saucedddd in dis pic lol.." how da hell she hear me from all da way ova dere..I wasnt even talkin to her" lmaoo (inny)

Team Pink! Brooklyn We Go Hard! loll

Can someone please tell me whos effin w/ her?! NOONE thats who!! lmao..da baddest white bitch in the game roccin w/ the hottest nigga out (after Drizzy dat is) ..Sorry Yeezy! loll

Dancers make thee Best models! (Touch My Body! lol)

Helloo!

Ayee! My very First blog! loll.
Hey everyone! My name is JAMILA ( juh-mee-luh) but you can call me MILLZ. Im 18 yrs young; born&bred in BROOKLYN baby! but as of now I reside in the 'A' (that's Atlanta for those of you who didnt know) ; where I attend college & parties loll. October 13th is the day I was dolled up & gift wrapped which makes me a Libra. I have a Son! (betcha didnt see dat coming huh?! lmao) he's 1 1/2 & he's my world wit his lil bad ass lol & he goes by the name of J.R. Im a full blooded Trinidadian (yes I can cook like one too!) =). I LOVE to eat,climb trees ;) lmaoo, chill (w/ friends,fam,alone..it dnt matter lol) climb some more trees & after dat eat some more lml. I hear music in my head 24/7 & I LIVE for ME & MINES! Im just babbling now & I dnt wanna bore you; Juss wanted you to know a little of me. Hope you like! Muahh! -Millz